June 2012
213 posts
i must go
Pray that these feelings don’t eat me up. Please.
Because my heart is still heavy, putting all these thoughts out hasn’t helped very much.
That scares me, because putting it out here ALWAYS helps.
but
How would i go about doing that?
I’ve tried, believe me, i have.
i think it's high time
That i stopped being childish, whiny Meena.
I want to be Genevieve, the one with potential. The one everyone likes. The one who gets along with everyone. Who’s strong. Who won’t let this get her down.
I haven’t been Genevieve for the longest time. Meena’s preventing her from surfacing,
I can’t please everyone, like Meena tries so hard to do, despite having all...
if i could just stop time
Just curl down in my little pocket of time, unmoving, and just
I don’t know. Something. Something to keep from time moving forward to the end of the year
applejack's fucking staring at me from the...
I have the strongest urge to just grab the damned calendar and rip all the goddamned happy ponies apart.
Can’t do that. Was a gift.
couldn't have messed up any worse
Stupid stupid dumb dumb.
Gonna ruin your straight a’s. Who are you kidding, those are solid b’s. You can’t bring those up.
thank for the messages
I can’t respond.
Sneaking my phone just to get this out
Because these thoughts will destroy me if i don’t before i go to bed.
funny
How just a few days ago i couldn’t be happier
Now today, things couldn’t be worse.
Just can’t lose, huh, Genevieve?
Yeah right.
tears
Held back so well
Now spill out
Stop
I’m really weak
Truly helpless
Weaknesses only created by myself
Why?
Why????
all i'm feeling is anger
So much anger
I’ve never felt anger before i realize
Only irritation
I’m afraid.
Someone help me.
Please.
literally supergrounded
all the grounding
all of it
cya
uh
whenever
May 2012
125 posts
the more time passes by
The more helpless i feel. I can’t help, even with my little persona. She’s out of ideas. I never had any ideas, myself. I feel so useless. I’m getting b’s, which is basically failing my classes to my and my parents’ standards. I don’t feel like i belong with my friends anymore. I’m always tired.
I wish it was December again. For the first time in my life...
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and then he had a meltdown, he was trying, really...
i cannot control, i am overload,
so many of these things can control me
there is murphy’s law, there is newton’s law
things go wrong, and then they
then fall down on me
why, so many things change around me?
i feel a lot more secure when i'm wearing the...
but i’m also too embarrassed to wear it when anyone can see me
dang
that helps rofl
goodnight
good luck
sweet dreams
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Anonymous asked: What happened?
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smtskulltrumpeter asked: Hey, hope you have a good night. If you do sleep, sleep well, aight?
the answer is yes
don’t even think about it, damnit.
can't think
i should go to sleep
nah
not mad
just slightly annoyed; i was serious and i’m really tired so i’m overreacting
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Stop crying - you’ve got a lot to look forward to, you know! A normal human life on Earth - mortgage repayments, the 9-to-5, a nagging sense of spiritual emptiness… Save the crying for later, boyo.
the more i say it
The quicker its meaning is lost.
i dont like arguing and debating because i always...
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Oh, you’ll probably go to heaven, please don’t hang your head and cry~
wow that doesn't even sound like me
i guess i should be happy
saying shut the fuck up is pretty bad
but stfu sounds sorta like me? idk.
i don't understand
And i feel really bad because i don’t.
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Anonymous asked: nooo :( meena please be ok
im not "oh well"-ing this
If i cant even sort out my thoughts in my head, how in the world am i supposed to tell you out loud? Especially with your questions and “well why do you feel this way?” I don’t know i just fucking do.
i was going to start today with a smile
Today was going to be all smiles
But now it feels forced. Wow, day, rude.
oh my fUCKING GOD
No no no i don’t ned this right now ahahahaa
Fuck. Imfucking trying I’m not being selfish I’m legitimately TRYING my mom should not fucking TURN DOWN a promotion because of me and my brother
Christ.
wowee
Wake up from a somewhat cheerful dream to my mom yelling at me about my grades. Fucking hell.
Whatever.
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okay i'm overreacting
Still
Good night, yo
Feel better okay please
hands shaking
Aaaaaaa okay i think i need to go to bed and calm down if you’re reading this good night and just put it down, put it somewhere else, please
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